Healing or Nah

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[image description: meme with a frowny dog that says on top: when the therapist says — text on bottom reads: this sounds like a hard time for you”]

Note: I am not against therapy etc, I need it to evolve.

Take time to heal. Healing is necessary. Healing, healing healing- I have seen healing more now than I have in a long time. It is apt of course; we all are in dire need of it. In theory, I fully believe in the power of taking the time to heal. I have written about it myself; I have written a whole book about learning to care for oneself, I had a regular series of essays about it, and this is not new for me.

And now here I am. I am burnt out. I am burnt out at my job, I am burnt out trying to keep my family alive under capitalism, I am burnt out just trying to be alive never mind trying to thrive. When the pandemic and quarantine started, I had very high hopes. I felt that because the constraints of social interactions were less, I’d have more emotional space to deal with myself. I was wrong.

Quarantine proved to be a disaster for my mental health beyond COVID stress. I had time to think, to analyze and to look inward. By nature, I am an introspective person. I have survived to this age because I have had to teach myself to evaluate how I feel, why I feel. I can’t afford mental health care, so I do a lot of work in that arena on myself.

My eyes opened too wide, and I see too much. I’ve gotten some very nice, very apt advice. What most of the…